SUMMER OF HATE
SUMMER OF HATE
Tied down and torn, I watched my summer just pass me by, with those familiar feelings coming back to haunt, anxiety is building up, my minds in fucking pieces, and it gets harder every day, staring down at a loosened cast feeling like the next 8 months will never pass, something like this was long overdue, ‘I should count myself lucky’ through these years, all those times, my fears were only seconds behind, it finally caught me, and I’ve been longing ever since, just to feel a sense of progress, it’s just so useless, I just can’t take it anymore, I’ve been looking for ways to pass the time, since that day in June where it all went wrong, desperate to feel the slightest movement, and the streets passing beneath me, they’ve been the best years of my life, I know you think it isn’t much, but nothing else comes close.
I found myself sinking at the edge of this town, staring back with guilt I’ve held my breath for far too long, watery eyes, a mouth full of wounds, hopeful heart, I’ll see you soon, and I will, because your everything to me, what once was fun and games was just the start of the biggest mistake I’ve repeated time and time again, and I kept asking when will it end this lifeless routine, I’ve spent four years lost with regret and I’m sorry to say communication has only felt like a choir since I found myself crumbling from the habits that stole, everything you expected from me, the warmth from your eyes, a parents dream, well I’m done with killing time and wasting nights through something that numbs me, you gave my life back.
Dead Swans - I’ve Been Trying To Leave (Brand new song)
